I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at the thoughts of what I
should do within a moment of uncertainty in regards to directing myself through
an experience, whether it be an experience I don't like, or simply an
experience where I am not sure how to direct myself and in this allow thoughts consisting of memories to run through myself as the mind and direct me within
the situation wherein I end up sabotaging myself through following the thoughts
within the memories as the thoughts within the memories are not life, are not
what is best for life because they are not life - sabotaging myself within the
direction of myself because through directing myself as thoughts I am thus
directing myself within energy causing myself to not be here and direct myself
within breathing as life but to direct myself out of energy causing myself to sabotage myself in taking responsibility for myself here as life and all life here
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to trust myself within and as thinking to direct myself, and in
this trust to sabotage myself within the moment I allow myself to trust myself
to make the choice for myself based on thoughts consisting of memories wherein
I repeat the same cykill over and over, which inevitably kills me and this
earth as the pattern that I have learned and lived is not of life, is not of what is best for all life, it is of
self-interest and self-interest is not what is best for life as myself as
breath and earth as existence
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself through accepting a
single thought within me where I give my self over absolutely to that thought
and allow one thought to direct me, causing myself to sabotage myself as life
as I gave away my power within equality and oneness within breath away to a
thought consisting of energy, making myself as who I am less than a thought -
in this sabotaging myself as life as I am the one who makes myself less than a
thought.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the self-saboteur each day over
and over through allowing myself to think thoughts that consists of attempts at
a solution to the issues that I face, such as sleeping as resistance, wherein I
allow myself to think thoughts revolving around a solution such as sleeping for
only a bit when I, in self-honesty, know that I will sleep more and in this
point to place trust within the thought as myself allowing myself to sabotage
through giving myself trust within thought instead of breathing when and as the
point of moving through the tiredness arises, in this I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the same self-saboteur
character when I decide to take responsibility for homework or any other
responsibilities wherein I will allow myself to think about doing the
responsibility when I do not have the immediate opportunity to, creating a
positive spin on doing the responsibility through allowing myself to project
myself into doing it when I have set up the time within a thought and within
the mind, when in self-honesty the very act of thinking the thought of doing
the responsibility and `gearing myself up` to work on the responsibility shows
that I am resisting the responsibility and am only creating an illusion for
myself in making myself believe that I am going to work on it when I have the
time through trusting the thought process that I created at a time when the
responsibility was not right here in front of me, in this sabotaging myself
when I get to that point when it is here right in front of me as I expect to
still have that illusory positive spin on myself doing the responsibility but
only face resistance, and in this allow the thought process to again kick in of
`how to move through the resistance` which never in fact is a solution as the
solution lays within breath and in the immediacy of moving through the
resistance with breath, not having to think about doing it but simply doing it,
placing self here and doing it within and as breath
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not bring myself back here within
one breath in the moment I see myself sabotaging myself and participating in
the character of the self saboteur, and in this bringing myself back here
within one breath to stop sabotaging myself in that one breath and direct
myself within that one breath within what is best for all life, and to keep
myself in that direction through continuing to keep myself in breath, stopping
the thoughts each moment they arise from the moment further through not
participating in the thoughts but remaining here within breath within directing
myself, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
bring myself back here in one breath, but to allow myself to again drift off
into the mind within the next breath where I then immediately fall back into
the self-sabotaging pattern.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy sabotaging myself because the
sabotaging consists of energy, of a good
feeling, of a feeling of positivity and excitement, enjoyment, that good feeling
that most search for, wherein doing what is best for all consists of no
self-pleasure in the context of energy and mental stimulation of energy,
because doing what is best for all means to take responsibility for ourselves
and to control and stop ourselves within and as our accepted and allowed
patterns and habits that are not based in equality and oneness and what is best
for all, and self-sabotaging is to continue within the habits and patterns that
we have developed where we only care for ourselves and our energetical gains
within the moment of sabotage, for example within sleeping in where I sleep in
because of the moment I want more sleep for the energetical purpose of not
having to wake up and face myself, but in this causing a consequence of me
having to rush to get ready for work = I only cared for the feeling I wanted in
that moment and did not look at the consequences where best for me as life
would to get up, and move through the established pattern in the morning that
has shown it is quite `good` for me, good in the context of I am able to feed
myself and inject insulin at a convenient time, and to write this out - in this
take responsibility for myself and direct myself in breath.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the enjoy coming
from self-sabotage is a minuscule event within the context of the whole of
myself as life and my entire existence on this earth and that if I continue in
the self-sabotaging character that I have developed I will not ever realize
that existence is the accumulation of time and that if I want to live how I
actually want to live - free from sabotaging myself - it is going to take time
and effort to get myself to a point where I stop sabotaging myself for
self-interest and it is going to take time and effort, and in this if I give
into that want for the energy within one moment, I am not going to realize
myself as life as the accumulation of everything, but to only live for the
instant mcdonaldsification of reward and good feeling, instead of practically
living what is best for all infinitely throughout time and space
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be patient with myself and make
that choice within the moment I notice myself participating within
self-sabotage for the existentially minute feeling within energy to stop in
that moment and to do what is best for myself in that moment and to breathe in
that moment, let go unconditionally and re-direct myself here within breath
within what is best for all life, in this creating myself as a living example
of what is best for all life, giving life to life, and stopping the way that we
humans have been existentially living which is only for our own self-interest
within a minute existential moment which we then sabotage ourselves within
shown through our participation within the money system where, for example,
nuclear power plants were built quickly for the minute moment where they are
financially profitable, not considering the real effects that it is going to
have on the environment, or the fishing industry, or the lumber industry…in
this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only consider
one minute existential moment within myself and wants for/as energy/money and
to not consider all time that is going to be effected by the relationships that
I and we as humanity decide to participate within and as and the consequences
of each of these relationships throughout time as time will continue and the
relationships that we participated in are going to have an effect - the forests
are still going to be cut, the fish are still going to be extinct, the sea is
still going to be polluted, and where money will die out as soon as we stop
believing in it leaving us left with our life sabotaging consequences, and
leaving all future time with our sabotage of life itself.
I commit myself to
stop trusting the thoughts that arrive when I look for a solution to myself
here and to start to trust breath and in this to develop trust for myself
within breath through allowing myself to trust myself to breathe when and as I
find myself moving within the self-saboteur character.
I commit myself to
consider all the time that I am moving through within this reality and to in
this stop considering only one minute action or event or piece of time and to
in this stop searching for only my own personal gratification within and as
energy, and to consider the relationships that I am existing within that will
continue within consequence past my death and to in this one life correct the
relationship I have to existence and myself to equality and oneness and to live
what is best for all in every moment I am here so that the future generations
and future life as me will live within a world that lives within what is best
for all, and not within a world that only considers one being out of the
entirety of existence (self-Interest)
I commit myself to
let go within one breath that which I desire to participate within/as
self-interest and so re-direct myself within that one breath to what is best
for all life as myself and to unconditionally let go of the actions I have
lived as self-sabotage as life and to re-create myself entirely through using
the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-correction to create
myself within equality and oneness and to live, in every way, what is best for
all
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